I was walking today....across campus..and just thinking..about a lot of things but the thought that stuck with me...
if i could have anything in the world, that was not for anyone else, that was just for me, something that was not material...i would want to know how to grieve well. i realize that is a bit of a strange thought, but really...i feel like i walk through life grieving people, because life, is full of loss, don't get me wrong, it is full of a lot of beautiful things, but even in the middle of those, loss is an intricate part of living... we lose people, both in death and also just in life...relationships end, friendships fall between into the gaps, we lose circumstances. some things in our lives are only for a season...as swiftly as they begin, they also end we lose dreams and ideals. and as strange as it may seem, it is necessary to grieve that ideal self, as dreams change, as circumstances change, i find myself grieving certain dreams...needing to let go of the old to make room for the new... so if i could have one thing, it would be to grieve well. to work through the mourning and find the rejoicing, and the newness...because sometimes i get lost, in a maze of grief, struggling to find the light at the end of the tunnel. looking for a way out. just thoughts. much love to you all--
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